*pasakon is going through a tough time at the moment so now she's opening up really nice chibi commissions and some lovely adopts.
I just want to crawl away and hideBig fat sad reality rant, please ignore
So I've been pretty quiet about a lot of the things happening in the real world lately, and although my mum is good and healthy and out of the hospital, apparently that was the least of our worries.
My mum and I are the only 2 left in my house since my brother left, and since we moved out of dads house, but it's pretty nice usually, we both usually have an income to pay for things and we usually talk about fun things.
But since mum has left the hospital she hasn't been allowed back to work for another month (Doctors orders). Which wouldn't be so bad since we have insurance for that.
but hold the mother fucking phone.
insurance?!
for... someone who is sick and can't work let alone go out of the house for a month?!
See, it seems like a pretty sweet deal, but hey here's the catch, you need to fill out all of these crazy forms, and chase random people up.
IT'S BEEN LIKE A FUCKING TREASURE HUNT
the prize?
your rent for the week.
So we finally g $5 sketch chibi'shey guys, for now i'm taking orders for some sketch chibi's c:
they'll look like this

Taking 5 slots now
1. *eonixc - http://aschenlux.weebly.com/pipo-and-mimo.html
2. *Sakura-Pumpkin - http://sakura-pumpkin.deviantart.com/art/V9-Concepts-371117212 | with skateboard
3.
4.
5.
Paypal only
please send to samanthapowe@hotmail.com
these earnings are going to help my mum and I pay the rent hahaaa OTL
PLEASE NOTE ME YOUR ORDER WITH PICTURE REFS ONLY
you can have description, but I need a picture to work off haha ; v ;/

I really want to help her somehow but I don't have the means and resources to buy anything for myself (and if I could, I'd be buying all her gorgeous adopts rshmfrshmshmshm > m <)

It would really mean a lot if you could take the time to read her journals and if possible advertise her commissions or buy something for yourself ; w ; She's been nothing but one of the nicest friends I've had on dA and it really frustrates me that I can't do much to help her when she's in trouble q m q

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*personal rant up ahead*


<sub>In other news, I really miss drawing ; m ;

Summer classes are ending and the new term is beginning and all I've been doing the past few weeks are boring doodles during classes. I also have this really long backlog of owed art both here on dA and IRL but I don't even feel any progress from them at all because of all the projects in my majors. What's even more frustrating is that I had to redo a couple of subjects (did I mention I'm delayed a year? OTL) and that one of these subjects was a class that lasted from 5pm-9pm. This means that for the past summer I've been going to class from 9am-9pm with little breaks in between and whenever I get home I just slump back to bed feeling really tired and stressed and negative >___<

Idk some days I just want to flip the world and try to reenact that feeling of getting inspired after holding my tablet pen. Instead I'm left here getting homesick or feeling doubtful of my abilities to continue in the career path I've chosen for myself. I can't help but compare myself to all these amazing people around me and feel upset at myself for falling behind and for letting down the expectations my family had in me. Hell, I've failed the expectations I had for myself. And trust me that they weren't even that high to begin with Q m Q

haha I'm really not used to gushing out personal problems over the internet but I just felt like I needed to vent out some steam ; u ;</sub>